My top ten
Here is a list of my top 3 everything

Actresses
1. Clea duvall
2. Angelina Jolie
3. angela BASSETT
THATS ALL i CAN THINK OF FOR NOW

poets
1. nafeesa monroe
2. saul williams
3. vince robinson

movies
1.foxfire
2. but I'm a cheerleader
3. dangerous minds

because I can
hey. SO I went to kinkos the other day and printed up about 11 zines. They came out alright except that some of the words on the pages didn't come out good. Well, I don't want to send them out because it's not a very good product like that. I don't want to waste the either. So I decided to send them to distros. The I realized that I shouldn't be sending f-ed up copies to people I want to distro it. I decided basically to send two copies to two girls who sent their money in. I will also refund their money too. I told this guy I wanted to fuck him. Not because he is sexy(which he is) or because I like him and definatly not because I love him. Becasue I can. He wants to and I just kind of want to see how far I can take him. I'll probably change my mind in a day or two. Besides, there is this guy that I really like and he likes me too and I don't want to have sex with some other guy and have him look at me in a different way.
I just saw the movie foxfire. Angelina Jolie was so amazing in it. Of course she is amazing in everything sge does. But Foxfire was so powereful. When I saw her and the way she delivered the lines I said" Yes, that is what I want to do" SHe just comes alive on the screen and wraps me up in her. Besides that, the sneaky lesbian undertones were wonderful too. I have to but the book. I'm really enjoying this having a job thing. It's nice to have money on the regular. Even though I don't shop a lot. I just got my nails done for the first time. I bought a pair of boots because I thought they were cute and I'm going to buy some Victoria's Secret tomorrow. Life is peachy.

perfection
This is exactly the way i feel. It feels like I could have written it myself. Only my writing would not be as good. I just spent my last 20 bucks on this book and I am so impressed with it. I feel bad about it though. I don't feel normal. I'm going to go back to school wearing the same clothes and i feel perfectly fine about it. Becasue I have this new book and I feel like I can face the world as long as it is by my side.
I called Amy Sonnie a few days ago. A couple of yeays back she edited this wonderful anthology called Revolutionary Voices. I have decided that i would be interested in editing a follow-up. Or would I? I have so many ideas i my head and I just don't know what to do with them. Last year I decide that I wanted to edit an anthology. It really did not have any theme I just wanted to do one. I wanted to have a big stack of work by other people that felt like me. I wanted to be responsible for it too. It was a great experience because it led me to the zine scene and it led me to get to know some wonderful people. I just don't want to waste this women's time. It's a really big commitment and I'm not sure if I'm "up to the challenge". Will i really want to do that a year from now? Should I just stick to my little zine? The same little zine that practlically no one reads. The same zine that I am scared to send to Alix olson because I'm afraid she'll regret letting me use her poem. Maybe she'll look at it and love it or maybe she'll look at it and cringe and throw it in the garbage. Then send me a fake not about what she like about it. I don't want that. Secretly I want perfection.

I prefer girls
So, I bought this pin that says I prefer girls on it, because i like girls. There cute and they have soft skin. I want to wear it to school but I'm too chicken shit to do so. Granted I am a somewhat out Bisexual but wearing something like that is so official. It's like I won't be able to take it back. Then there is the question of how people will react. Most people won't probably care but I have some friends who probably will. I tried to tell this one girl like three years ago but she cut me off and started to talk about something else. So I made up this lame story about something els. She later confessed that she thought I was going to tell her that she was gay and that is why she cut me off. Further letting me know that she can't handle the truth. I'm still debating over weither or not I should wear it or not. I think I will.

Me and My guitar
yeah, I got a guitar for christmas. I've only been asking for it since I was 14 but hey shit happens.... people happen. The only problem is... I don't know how to read music. SO i'm kind of shit out of luck until I get soem lessons. I have a lot of other things I need to do. Like update this site. I was going to over x-mas break but being the wonderful person I am I left the damn flats at school. I'm already getting orders and I can't get it to them until after the 5th. bummer. On the upside, I could really appreciate some feedback from the site readers. I'm starting to feel that there aren't any. I was looking at other zien/personal sites that I like and I made a list of all of the things that I liked about them

1. they had pictures(I can't fugure out how to put pixs on, thats the main reason I want to switch hosts)
2. blogs
3. counter- they almost always had a counter to see how many folk come to their site.
4. guestbook- now I already have one but I've only recieve on signature so that's why I think no one read it.